Sunday, October 25, 2009
More pertinent worries to come.
Like promos results.
lol
xjohtox; posted @ 11:29 PM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Big ideas.
Is that all you've got?
Make them materialize, idiot.
Stop daydreaming.
Start doing.
xjohtox; posted @ 12:36 AM
Go to hell you fucking useless hypocrite.
Start doing.
NOW.
NOW.
NOW.
xjohtox; posted @ 12:27 AM
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
How long must one endure all the ridiculousness?
This is the fucking 节骨眼。
Wake up.
Please.
For the sake of the rest of us, even if you don't give two hoots about it.
xjohtox; posted @ 9:20 PM
Sunday, October 18, 2009
You.
You're so fucking unreasonable.
You're so fucking arrogant.
Just because you're the sole breadwinner.
Just because you have absolute control over our lives, financially, and resultingly, emotionally as well.
Just because you know you're like our God. Our source of everything.
What the fuck does that make you?
What the fuck has that made you into?
A tyrant.
We're not your puppets.
We're not your employees.
We're not your creations that you can throw around and ignore at will.
Wake up.
Realise that you're not invulnerable.
Realise that we're also tolerating YOU.
We just don't want the family to break up.
Apparently you don't mind.
Is it because you don't care?
Is it a display of machismo?
Of your financial superiority?
Of how easily we will be left crushed and desolate without you?
Is that how you treat us?
Is that how you really want to treat us?
Is that how you should treat us?
Look.
What is wrong with speaking up?
What is wrong with participating in AMICABLE talks?
What is wrong with reaching a HAPPY resolution?
What the fuck is a family to you then?
You claim not to care about the neighbours' children.
Do you even care about your own?
Do you even care about your wife?
Do you even care?
No, you say.
I don't!
Is it shameful to admit that you are wrong?
Is it shameful, to be humble for once?
Is it shameful to back down in an argument?
You demand perfection.
Are you even perfect?
You rarely do anything wrong.
Of course, that's because you rarely do things that can go wrong.
When you do, you laugh it off.
When you do, it's not mentioned.
When WE do, things happen.
Are all mistakes irreconcilable to you?
When you touch our raw nerve, nothing happens.
When we touch your raw nerve, shit happens.
I'm not even going to demand equality in treatment.
Fairness in your own FAMILY.
I've learnt.
We've learnt.
It doesn't seem to happen.
Maybe someday, you'll have woke up,
And, barely concious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"
xjohtox; posted @ 3:39 PM
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
Please, please forgive me.
I won't ever give up again.
I'm swearing off time wasting activities.
I need to change.
Right now.
Goodbye, DotA.
Goodbye.
xjohtox; posted @ 2:39 AM
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Blogger post template is fucked up.
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I'm still looking for my sanity, my reason, my sense of control.
Has anyone seen it, can anyone find it for me to restore me to what I was, and who I want to be?
Please, I'll die for it and I will die without it.
xjohtox; posted @ 11:37 PM
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
I can't hear those alarm bells screaming away anymore.
It's like I'm blind, or deaf to the cacophony of the resonant warnings.
But I'm not. I can't be.
How do I wake up?
How do I see, how do I realise, that it might be too late, already?
Wake me up, wake me up inside
I can't wake up, wake me up inside
Save me, call my name and save me from the dark
and
Bring me back to life.
xjohtox; posted @ 11:30 PM